Worried? Stay calm?

Maybe? Wait, how do I stay calm?

Sorry I haven’t written in awhile. Life has been hectic and doesn’t seem to want to slow down. If you figure out how to slow down time let me know! (sarcasm font)

I recently took my daughter to the pediatrician recently for limb, joint pain and a fever. Her regular doctor wasn’t in but another doctor in the office saw my daughter. So the doctor said to record her symptoms for a month and call if she develops another high fever. There’s suspicion of arthritis since it runs in my family or it could just be growing pains that happened to occur while she had a virus. I wonder if I should have pushed for blood draws since my daughter had labs done a few months ago and her results could be different now. I’m just extremely worried because her pain is almost on a daily basis now.

I don’t know if I should trust my gut because I always feel like the doctors at the pediatrics office talk down to me. As an autistic woman I’m always doubting myself since a lot of times people don’t take me seriously. I think it’s because I have a quiet, small voice and struggle to find my words. It’s so much easier to write what I’m thinking. But if I talk to a doctor or anyone with authority my words get jumbled between my brain and mouth. I’m hoping my daughter will be okay on our upcoming vacation. I plan on keeping a close eye on my daughter.

Another thing I’m worried about is our upcoming trip. I just hope my daughter can stay calm on our road trip. Heck I hope I CAN stay calm! Road trips wear me out especially if there are a lot of people in one vehicle. I plan on bringing ear plugs in case I get irritated by all the noise on the road. And I’m packing lots of toys and books to keep my daughter occupied. What do you guys do to keep calm on a road trip? And what tricks do you use to calm down when you have a sensory overload while traveling?

I have a hard time adjusting to last minute plan changes. I feel like I have gotten a little better with age. My mom and sister are going with us on the trip. And last minute my mom asked if my aunt could come along. I said yes. It made me a bit anxious though because it was last minute. But I know it will be fun and I love my aunt very much. Plus that means I have an extra set of hands to help with my daughter! I was proud of how I handled the change of plans. I freaked out for a minute. Then I told my husband to book an extra hotel room for our first stop on our road trip. And my aunt found herself lodging arrangements when we get to California.

I’m also worried about my upcoming surgery after we come back from vacation. But I think as long as I follow the pre-operation and post-op instructions I should be just fine. I plan on regularly meditating the week prior to my surgery. Meditation seems to help me out. The key for me is remembering to meditate! 🙂

How about you reader? If you’re autistic how do you deal with worries and stress? Do you feel better if you have plan for handling a stressful event? Please leave a comment below!

Published by deannajv

I'm autistic. I'm also married and have a daughter. I graduated with a bachelor's degree in Family Studies and Human Services.

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